Once again, it has been several months since I felt I should write something in this blog. I have gone through what can only be described as a 'dry' period. As I think I have said before, unlike my other blog, which is more of a hobby, (and there is nothing wrong, I believe, in having a hobby, as long as it is not against the Will of Elohim,) I only feel the right to post within this one, when I am instructed. There were several factors in my life, over the past few months, where I had faith, but it was compromised. I 'believed' something would happen, but held contingency plans in case they did not. I had asked for Elohim's help, but was fearing the worst.
Perhaps I need to be more specific. My faith in Elohim is unconditional. However, I do have a 'program' that needs to be re-written. Before I was 'born again', I was the eternal pessimist. It was so much easier to think the worst, and then when it happened, you were prepared. This programming compromised my ability to hear the voice of the Spirit, and it started to entwine with other programmes, which caused not only 'chinks' but massive holes in the Armour of Elohim!
However, during my 'dry' spell, I started to hear again, and I believe I was 'bumped' back into where I was meant to be. There is a verse that says it all. Matthew 7:3 'And why do you look at the speck in your brother's eye, but do not consider the plank in your own eye?'
I was very quick to berate other's, and suddenly found that I was guilty of the same. 'How could they ............ ', was something that I was saying on a regular basis. It occurred to me, shortly after the beginning of the year, that I was being taught a lesson. How could I possibly look at the speck and tell someone that they were not walking along the straight and narrow path, when I was doing something very similar. Unfortunately, we do not always see the similarity between other's wrong doing and our own, as the elements differ.
However, it was at the bump that I came back into line. It was at this point that things started to happen. I was, like Psalm 1 says, beginning to be the tree planted by the rivers of water. We are currently, in Texas, in the middle of the Legislative Session. Our industry is once again under attack. Without digressing too much, there has been a regulatory program run by the Supreme Court, which, by definition is Unconstitutional. A bill has been filed which will enable this program to continue under a new guise. Many have tried to stop two bills from reaching the voting stage, but have failed. Normally, at this stage in the session, I am terrified that the opposition will win, and despite the unconstitutionality and irregularity, laws are made, and the only way to halt them is by filing a law suit, which no one can afford. It really has been a case of not what you know, but who you know. However, this session has been different. Once I was rebooted, the worry of 'what might be' suddenly disappeared. I knew, as always, that Elohim was in control, but this time I believed he was in charge. I had no concerns. Of course, there is always the disappointment in fellow mankind, but what is Elohim's Will is Elohim's Will! I cannot change the future. I want what my Elohim wants. It was then I started to pray, not for my want, but for his. It is true, bad things will happen!
Then the most amazing thing happened. We were driving home from work, and my husband was on the phone to one of his friends (whose story I will relate in a future post) when I suddenly started to think about the week ahead, and asked Elohim, 'What should I ask for?' The answer came to me very quickly. It was quite simply, 'Let the Senator tell the truth'. I cannot fully describe on a page what happened. I knew I was praying, but it was deep within. I was not 'praying in tongues', as I could not hear what I was praying. I just felt something working within me. It was as if there was a conversation going on between me and my most inner parts, and only my heart could hear. When it was over, I was quite overwhelmed.
The next day, I missed the live broadcast, and had to wait for the daily session to end before I was able to 'replay'. As the Senator took the stand, he was asked by another, as to whether the current program was constitutional, and whether the Supreme Court had the right to create a regulatory program. The Senator stood there, and replied, 'No!' Despite this, the bill was voted out, favourable, but the Senator had told the truth, and I knew that I had done Elohim's Will, and the outcome was immaterial. I am not sure what will happen next, but there was a reason why my Father put the request into me. Again, I not only knew but believed He was in charge, and as long as I am faithful, and listen to His voice, I shall walk through the shadow of the valley of death, and have no fear. His rod and His staff shall comfort me.
I am, however, aware of an outside influence. While I believe I am thoroughly protected, I can almost feel the arrows of unrighteousness being stopped by the Armour that is surrounding me. I can feel the 'old' attempting to penetrate the 'new', and the feelings of concern, and despair, shouting to me from afar. I shall, however, not be moved!
My hope is that I shall be given an opportunity to write again, very soon, but that is not my decision.
Sunday, April 28, 2013
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